Today is March 25, 2018. Four years ago today was my first day of living my Truth. I would never again be "Lance." I began my life as Sophie.
What am I doing today to celebrate? Nothing.
I've had a bad cold the past few days. And my roomie/bestie Linda has to be up at 2AM to go to work, so that scrubs any dinner plans, unless I go by myself.
Which I still might.
That means take Linda to work at 4, and my workout is at 6:30. I can do that.
What has four years taught me? I mean, after all, four years is enough to get a University degree!
Then and Now. This was also my last day wearing a wig constantly as Sophie.
Four years has taught me who my Friends are. I mean Really Are. 90% of my friends from my male days are gone. They just... disappeared. As expected. After all, I'm playing for the other team now, right?
Trans friends have come and gone as well, but I still have a solid core of friends, without whom, I would've been dead long ago. So blame them that I'm still here bothering you.
Above all, I have had reinforced how truly awful this world can be. When I transitioned, there was Hope for transgender people. There were adults in the White House who recognized us as human beings. We were starting to win against the forces of Hate.
That has all changed. Hate has swept into all nooks of American government. To uproot it will cost lives. I have said this many times- I will not survive this regime. They will come for me. I hope that my country survives it. I have my doubts.
Today, as I have the past few days, I feel sick as a dog. Nasty cold? Flu? No idea. But right now, I feel very down. All I want to do is nap. I may still go out later, but not right now.
Maybe I'll feel better later, after a nap.
Be well.
What am I doing today to celebrate? Nothing.
I've had a bad cold the past few days. And my roomie/bestie Linda has to be up at 2AM to go to work, so that scrubs any dinner plans, unless I go by myself.
Which I still might.
That means take Linda to work at 4, and my workout is at 6:30. I can do that.
What has four years taught me? I mean, after all, four years is enough to get a University degree!
Then and Now. This was also my last day wearing a wig constantly as Sophie.
Four years has taught me who my Friends are. I mean Really Are. 90% of my friends from my male days are gone. They just... disappeared. As expected. After all, I'm playing for the other team now, right?
Trans friends have come and gone as well, but I still have a solid core of friends, without whom, I would've been dead long ago. So blame them that I'm still here bothering you.
Above all, I have had reinforced how truly awful this world can be. When I transitioned, there was Hope for transgender people. There were adults in the White House who recognized us as human beings. We were starting to win against the forces of Hate.
That has all changed. Hate has swept into all nooks of American government. To uproot it will cost lives. I have said this many times- I will not survive this regime. They will come for me. I hope that my country survives it. I have my doubts.
Today, as I have the past few days, I feel sick as a dog. Nasty cold? Flu? No idea. But right now, I feel very down. All I want to do is nap. I may still go out later, but not right now.
Maybe I'll feel better later, after a nap.
Be well.
Sophie -
ReplyDeleteYou will survive this regime. It is falling apart slowly, but it will happen soon. You are too close to the pain to see what is happening beyond it. So have faith, and take things one day at a time. (It's what I've been doing for a while, and it helps put things in perspective.)
Take care....
M