Halloween approaches! And I finally have some time to type some thoughts. I've been rather busy,
Halloween, as I've often said, is my favorite holiday. It's also my "birthday"- the anniversary of the night I dressed as a woman for the first time in decades.
Halloween, as I've often said, is my favorite holiday. It's also my "birthday"- the anniversary of the night I dressed as a woman for the first time in decades.
Halloween 2008. My Wife saw me that night: she was Clark Kent to my Lois Lane. My friend Dawn did my makeup. I didn't know that this innocent costume would break open a long scabbed over wound. I sort of wondered if it would though. I wondered if I had the strength to keep it down. I figured I did- after all, I'd kept it down and deeply buried for over twenty years at that point. My coworkers saw me that night. My costume was a hit.
Halloween 2008, a previously "unpublished" photo
My Breasts for Halloween 08 were birdseed in pantyhose
We all know what happened. I didn't have the strength to stop my feminine side again. And a little more than a month later, I was Sophie.
The following Halloween (2009) was a party co-hosted by myself and my friend M. That year, I had purchased breast forms, hip pads, a custom corset, and breasts from Proactive Prosthetics arrived. I had my ears pierced. I had my eyebrows waxed. I also learned about the genius of Amanda Richards. So for the Halloween party, I again went as a woman, but this time with a little more polish. For the party, I called myself Monique.
Monique
And I also attended the Henri David Ball in a costume made for me by Lorraine Anderson of Occasional Woman.
Mary Marvel
Another year passed. I gained experience doing my own makeup and with wardrobe choices. For the "work" Halloween Party 2010, I went as God's gift to women- I wrapped myself in wrapping paper. I was hoping to throw off suspicions that I was a crossdresser. It seemed to work. However, for the Laptop Lounge Halloween Party (and for a friend's Halloween party) I again went with Mary Marvel. This time I visited a bar alone, and also visited a comic shop before going to the party.
"God's Gift to Women"
At the Comic book store. They recognized me immediately.
But for Henri David the following night, I wore another Lorraine Anderson creation: a St. Pauli Girl. That night was ruined by someone who did her best to get me angry.
Want a Beer?
Halloween 2011 was an odd one. Again, I co-hosted the Halloween Party. But this time, it snowed heavily the night of the party, so few showed up. I wore Mary Marvel that night (and for the subsequent "make up" party the following February. It was my co-workers first time seeing that costume.
At the "work" party
For Laptop Lounge and the soon to follow Beauty and the Beach costume contest, I wore another Lorraine Anderson costume. I was supposed to be an Evil Queen, but I had gained so much weight I thought I looked like a diva opera singer. The costume was beautiful though. I didn't attend Henri David Ball that year, as I still had a bad taste in my mouth from the year before.
Want an apple, Snow White?
Halloween 2012 I wore the same outfit to the work party as to the Henri David ball. I bought the outfit from the Pyramid Collection catalog, but Lorraine Anderson did many modifications to it, as it didn't quite fit. I love this costume. As can be imagined, tongues were beginning to wag about my going as a woman yet again. Two months after this, I was on hormones.
Vampiress
Halloween 2013 was rather somber. In the two months prior to this, I'd been thrown out of my MIL's house, was living with a friend, and had lost one of my best friends to suicide. Yet I cohosted a sparsely attended party anyway. I wore Mary Marvel again. I got very drunk very quickly. However, I wore a new costume to Henri David ball. This was another Lorraine Anderson creation: a Flameco Dancer. And for the first time on Halloween, I did my own makeup. By that time, I'd stopped wearing forms and was sporting my own breasts.
Flamenco!
Now it's Halloween 2014. It will be six years since my re-awakening. My life is completely different than the one I had on Halloween 2008. What am I wearing for Halloween? Well, for the Laptop Pre-Halloween party, I revisited the St. Pauli Girl- this time without the prosthetic. On Halloween night, I plan to be in Baltimore dressed as Mary Marvel (after which I'll probably retire that costume.) But for the two parties on Saturday Nov 1?
Can I get you anything?
That would be telling.
On this Harvest Moon, I reflect upon my life as is was and as it is. And I wonder where the road will take me in this next year. I now have 111 followers, and I hope that whatever happens will be compelling enough to keep you reading. As I really do appreciate you all.
I wish you all the best Saim Hann (if that's your way) and the happiest of Halloweens!
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