The day is over. I'm sitting here at my computer, drinking a glass of Bogle vineyards cabernet, and organizing my thoughts. As my roomie Linda is already asleep, I'm listening to 80s music on my headphones.
It's been a day.
It's been a day.
As those of you who follow this blog know, I work at a chain book store. I never name the chain, as 1) it really isn't anyone's business and 2) I don't want to violate any "online" policy they might have. Better safe than sorry. As I've stated several times in this blog and at my column on TG Forum, the management from the top down has been absolutely supportive of my transition. Keep this in mind, as it's important.
It was a strange day already at the Book store. Sundays are usually a nasty day. The rich folks go to church, get all guilted up, then come to the store and take it all out on the "peons" who work there. Also, we always have to straighten the store, as there will always be sloppy people, but on Sundays, the professional "store destroyers" come in and wreck the place. All in all, it's never a fun day.
But today... today was even weirder. For example, someone wanted me to wrap a gift card. That's just odd.
Anyway, it was around 3:30 PM. I was alone on register at the time, as the other register person was on break. A customer approached. She was Asian, mid 20s, maybe 5’4” tall wearing a blue jacket. I’d seen her in the store before this. Bought a few items of a religious nature, and started discussing how God is great. At that moment, no one was in line. I told her I have my religion, but prefer not to discuss it. She then told me how God can see into everyone’s hearts, and she could tell I had “a very good heart.” She said that several times. I thanked her. I mentioned we had many people come to the store directly from church. There was a little more small talk when I noticed a line started to build, and I prepared to call the next customer.
She then reached into her rather large purse and pulled out a DVD. She said “please accept this from me. Don’t be offended. I’m giving it to you out of love.” I told her I couldn’t accept gifts. She insisted; I refused again. By this point, the line had grown quite a bit. She insisted again, so I took the DVD, tossed it on the counter next to the register, and called for the next customer. At this point, the other cashier returned from her break, and we worked on the line.
Maybe 10 minutes later, the line was finished, and I looked at the DVD. It was called One of the Boys: the Sy Rogers story. I looked at the back and saw on the blurb “sexual redemption ministry.” I guessed that this person was one of the “reparative therapy” people I’d read about. I smirked, and decided I’d look it up on my break. I was a bit irritated at that point.
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A bit later, I took my break, and during time googled “Sy Rogers.” I discovered that he specializes in Transgender reparative therapy, which means, essentially, “pray the trans away.” This practice is illegal in several states, as it often leads to the suicide of trans person involved. At that point, I became extremely angry. I informed management. My break ended, and I returned to registers.
I remembered later that I'd seen this wonderful person before a few times, and that last time, she said she had a "Christmas gift" for me, which she would bring in next time she came to the store. Well, that explains why she just so happened to have that particular DVD in her bag.
Later in the shift, the manager on duty told me he had contacted the Store Head Manager, who is on vacation this week. At the end of my shift, he informed me that he was writing an incident report to send to corporate. I wrote one as well, and sent it to HR.
The Head Manager texted me expressing her regret that this happened, and said that if this customer returns before corporate gets back to management, that I should contact a manager and leave the register area.
Dear reader, I don't know if I have the strength to do that.
I have many friends who hold many different religious beliefs (including muslims, for which I'm sure the GOP will investigate me if Trump gets elected.) I respect all of their beliefs. I have my own, which are very personal to me. As such, I rarely discuss them. I just say I'm Christian, and leave it there.
One thing I feel EXTREMELY strongly about is how many on the right wing cloak their hatred in religion. They call themselves good Christians and good people, then spew hatred at everyone who isn't EXACTLY like them.
The woman today mentioned that "God sees into your heart." People like her often say "God doesn't make mistakes." Well, guess what, chick... God made me TRANS. And she made me this way to test the faith of people like YOU and YOU have been found Wanting! Yes, God "sees your heart" and sees HATE which you hide by excusing it with religion!
And I'd love to shout this in her sanctimonious, smiling face and watch her reaction.
I need this job.
The book store has supported me 100% when MANY other employers would not have done so. I seriously doubt that I'd be able to find other work, especially with a company which supports my transition so well.
So what will I do when she comes in again to see if I watched the DVD (which she will)?
I really hope that I have the strength to walk away, and let management handle it. After all, my job depends on it. I had the strength to live after Lisa died. I had the strength to be True to myself. Do I have the strength to not strike back? Was it not Shakespeare who once wrote "Wrong us, shall we not revenge?"
Stay tuned. This isn't over- not by a long shot.
Neener neener poopy head!