Two years ago today was a rainy, sleety day around the Philly area. I didn't have my driver's licence as it had been suspended for DUI. So my "Big Sister" Mel drove me into Philadelphia to the Mazzoni Center to get a prescription.
Estrogen and Spironolactone.
On the way back, we stopped at the California Pizza Kitchen for lunch. I contemplated taking the pills in the restaurant but decided to wait until I read the accompanying literature. So, after she dropped me back at MIL's house (I was still living there), I read all of it.
I dispensed the proper pills: one blue and one white. (Penn State colors!) and took them. No ceremony. Just down the hatch with a glass of water. And so my life changed.
Within a few months I started seeing changes. My breasts at first hurt, then grew. I took to wearing compression shirts under loose shirts.
I let my hair grow out. Eventually my facial features softened as did my skin. I switched to estrogen injections instead of pills. The drugs did their work and feminized me.
I've paid quite the price for the decision to take those pills. I no longer live with Wife and family. My marriage is all but over after over twenty years. I rarely see my daughter. I have lost friends.
Currently my body is feminine except for just below the waist. And that won't change until I manage to scrape the many thousands of dollars that Gender Confirmation Surgery costs. I may never get there. But I AM here... living as a Woman full time.
It's amazing what time does. In two years my life is completely different.
Where will I be in two more years?
Estrogen and Spironolactone.
On the way back, we stopped at the California Pizza Kitchen for lunch. I contemplated taking the pills in the restaurant but decided to wait until I read the accompanying literature. So, after she dropped me back at MIL's house (I was still living there), I read all of it.
I dispensed the proper pills: one blue and one white. (Penn State colors!) and took them. No ceremony. Just down the hatch with a glass of water. And so my life changed.
Pre- HRT
Within a few months I started seeing changes. My breasts at first hurt, then grew. I took to wearing compression shirts under loose shirts.
Somewhere in mid 2013
I let my hair grow out. Eventually my facial features softened as did my skin. I switched to estrogen injections instead of pills. The drugs did their work and feminized me.
December 2014
I've paid quite the price for the decision to take those pills. I no longer live with Wife and family. My marriage is all but over after over twenty years. I rarely see my daughter. I have lost friends.
Currently my body is feminine except for just below the waist. And that won't change until I manage to scrape the many thousands of dollars that Gender Confirmation Surgery costs. I may never get there. But I AM here... living as a Woman full time.
It's amazing what time does. In two years my life is completely different.
Where will I be in two more years?
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