After a break of more than a month, I was back at Laptop Lounge on May 21. I wore my white floral sundress, but this time without the girls. Last time I wore it, I didn’t see any cleavage so I didn’t see the point. Oops. Well, it was cut low enough that the tops of my breast forms kept making unannounced (and unwelcome) appearances above the neckline. Sigh. The things I do for beauty!
I went to dinner with eight other girls at Café Wimberle again. They seem to be used to us now. Then the Renaissance meeting, then Laptop. Laptop was quite crowded this time, especially with admirers. I would find out later that someone posted this event on Craig’s List which brought them out to play.
At Cafe Winberie
I mention them because this night would involve one of them. At Laptop, I circle about and say “hi” to many people, but I tend to stick close to the people I know well (usually at the bar.) It makes me feel just a little more secure. While I have had a guy buy me a drink once, I have never had one seriously hit on me. Why would they? I mean, there are so many other girls there who are pretty and FAR more feminine. I’m working on it, but I have a way to go yet.
But that night, there was a new guy- we’ll call him Ice (because he looks like Ice T a bit.) Ice was sitting at a table most of the night, watching it all happen about him. Around midnight, I was walking by and he called to me. Stood up and introduced himself. He said that it seemed I was the Queen bee or something. “Everyone comes over and pays their respects.” Oh puh-leeze! I laughed so hard and told him how wrong he was. He then shared his observations of others in the room.
Ice was fun to talk to, and he was hitting on me! Me??? He was very blunt with what he wanted, which I won’t repeat but I WILL say it wasn’t very feminine.
Wow. My first time being chatted up. Someone found me femininely attractive. He wanted me. I could NOT believe that- I still see a guy in a dress when I look in the mirror (getting better though!) ;) In any case, I went home alone, as it should be.
Last Saturday, June 4 was a big event here in Philly. It was day 3 of the Philadelphia Trans Health Expo. Over 2000 people signed up for the several day event. I could only attend on Saturday. So I hauled myself out of bed, up to Amanda’s for makeup, then down to the city.
My Transhealth look
I’ve walked about Philly myself before while dressed, but always at night. Saturday I walked around in broad daylight wearing a skirt. I was scared out of my mind! Once I arrived at the convention center, I was floored by the number of people there! So many! For the most part, I stayed at the Renaissance table. However, as I skipped breakfast, I was quite hungry.
The closest food was across the street at the Reading Terminal Market. RTM is a Philly landmark, and was PACKED. And there I was, little Sophie, walking alone in the throng. I wanted to test myself, but not that much! However, no one even blinked. The people at the one food stand even called me “maam!” Wow!
I stayed several hours at the con, then went back to my motel room in King of Prussia to change, freshen my makeup, and prepare for Laptop. I decided to wear a pink blouse and one of my faves- a gray pencil skirt.
So do you like it?
Laptop was not very crowded as there was a big party downtown marking the end of the conference. I arrived an hour early (again- pushing my limits). There were three guys at the corner of the bar near the only open place to order. They looked at me funny, but didn’t say anything. I ordered my drink and heard the one guy (drunk) bragging how he really wants to try absinthe. Like it would make him cool or something. I smiled and said “Absinthe will f*ck you up.”
Drunk replied “Really? How do you know?”
I said “I tried it once and woke up dressed like this!”
The two other guys just about fell out of their seats laughing. One said “You’re ok, no matter how you dress.”
I’m glad he approves, I guess.
Hanging around in the mall
In any case, it was mellow. My big sis Mel was there, and we watched the Phillies lose. I danced a bit. Enjoyed being Sophie. A GG said she loved my skirt. Ice was there, but we didn’t talk until I was leaving. I left around midnight, as it was a long day, went back to the hotel to become drab again, and went home.
Every time I go out lately I make more small steps. Someday soon I want to spend a day out as Sophie, shopping or whatever. Will I have the guts? I will have to! To continue on this path, I need to master many things yet, and being out and about as a woman is one of the most important.
As a woman. Me. Just the thought gives me chills.
Until next time!