I won't be going to Laptop Lounge or Renaissance in two weeks. I have an inescapable commitment. That said, Angela holds this event twice a month. I was going to go in drab, but decided what the hell? I need my girl time! So I made motel reservations and figured out an outfit. A striped top that showed my cleavage and jeggings. Only my second time out to Laptop without a skirt. Simple, yet hopefully effective.
And let's face it- I love showing my cleavage.
Amanda Richards told me she was booked, but then an opening on Saturday at 3. Would I want it? Hell yes! But then my wife decided on a "family outing." Uh oh. So I lied to her and told her I was called into work. I hate lying, but I NEED my Sophie time.
I checked into the motel, then dashed up to Amanda's. She did her usual great job. That saved me from having to run over to MAC and to Sally Beauty Supply for items I would need to do my own.
OK, so I was done and back at the motel by 6. There was no Ren meeting. Laptop wasn't starting until 10. So I called a couple friends, but none could join me for a drink. But my friend suggested I try going to a drive through fast food- expand my horizons. I liked the idea. So off I went. First, a stop at a money machine. It was an outdoor one, in full view of passing traffic. No problem.
Then to a nearby Wendy's. I tried to do a feminine voice as I ordered. When I pulled around, the person at the window was quite rude. I got the impression she was rude to everyone, not just me. So I went to the nearby King of Prussia mall and ate while sitting in the parking lot.
Sometime while eating the chicken nuggets, I decided I would walk inside. Alone. In a mall where I could run into many, many people I know. But I needed to do this. I needed and still need to expand my horizons as a woman. So I parked outside Lord and Taylor, and exited my car.
And walked into the store. A short guy laughed at me, but I ignored him. I kept my head up and smiled. I had as much a right as anyone to be there. I was a confident, happy woman. Out the store and into the mall, heels clacking. Down the mall a bit, and into the MAC store. I spoke to one of the sales people and eventually bought some lip gloss to match my shade for the evening ("Touch" if you must know.) Then back into the mall, head held high, clack clack. Just another woman shopping in the mall. OK, a 6'5" woman (with the heels) wearing a low cut top showing off her D-cup breasts, but still just another woman.
Back into Lord and Taylor. Through the store. Out and to my car. Where I sat down and almost hyperventilated. I couldn't believe I just did that! Sophie walked through the mall ALONE on a busy Saturday night. I was drained. Almost frantic. I was ecstatic. In those ten minutes, I grew subastancially as Sophie. As a woman. I called a couple friends, then went to Blue Pacific early. I wanted a drink to celebrate!
So I was at the bar, where I recognized a guy from a previous Laptop. We spoke briefly, but he had his daughter with him, so wasn't there long. She was scared of me. The guy sitting at the end of the bar? he sent a drink down to me.
Ladies and gentlemen- another first! This was the first time a guy I didn't know bought me a drink! I looked good enough to deserve a drink! OMG I was in heaven! I accepted the drink and we talked for a good long time.
Picture courtesy Angela's Laptop Lounge
Then I danced!
Then I went back to the room. I had a morning shift, so that meant early exit. I looked in the mirror in the motel and staring me back was not the same woman who left the room earlier. She had grown so much. I was almost overcome- I was so close to tears of joy.
Small steps. Small steps. Eventually going to a mall en-femme will be no big deal. But it was tonight.
Just another night.